Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 11:15 AM
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and still funny how it keeps loving him with every single shattered piece ? right ? U broke my heart ... and u know u did ... and still I say it is okay ... it is always ok ..one thing I just cannot seem to change about the way I am ... no matter what ppl do it is always ok and fine to me ... I just accept ppl and things as they are ...
It was too good to be true anyways ... I know ...
What happened ? I dunno ... We were just too different... and u said that loud and clear ... u said I was strange ...
In any other situation , if some1 else told me that I'd be making jokes about it ...how being strange is cool and that ya shall all just pimp my style ... but I felt nothing but pain in the chest when u told me that !!!
I cannot describe what I felt ... I felt anger ... I wanned to cry and laugh at the same time ...
And then ... u told me u like the necklace I gave u so very much and u wear it ... and I said ok ... I don't care to be honest ...
U broke my heart and throw it in a trash can , u can do that with the necklace too ... U cannot comfort me now with saying that u like the thing I gave u ... in fact u cannot comfort me at all ...
I am not mad at u ... u just broke my heart ...
And it is fine , it is okay ...
But this time is the fucking last time I swear ... no guy EVER will do this to me , no guy ever will talk to me this way .. no guy ever will get near me ... NO GUY EVER!!!
I keep admiring some famous guys .. God I dunno ... God bless you tube I watched Brian Molko's vid for 45 mins ... I wanned to calm down from what u said to me ... have u ever sand your fav song from the top of your lungs and cried at the same time ??? HAVE U
I just did ... It hurts ... it really hurts ... the throat , the lungs hurt ...cos there's no enough oxygen ... but my soul hurts more , my heart hurts more ...
this is the fucking last time I swear ...